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Sorry I am only catching up on all my reading today. Love that you have now captured a moment in time locked into your substack files....and even though so much has changed, the joy of transformation is in the looking back and then realising sometimes we have to go through so much to push us into the best space possible for us to find ourselves...and to truly land... you've landed L...onwards and upwards...so much fun ahead x

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Thank you, Lou! 🧡

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"I am basically a wizard", is the most brilliant line! Also loving moving through your diaries and hearing your added subtext from where you are now. It's very moving.

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Thank you so much my friend. It has indeed been lovely to feel proud of myself (even if the past might be a cringe at times, I have grown from it hehe)

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Sexuality is so weird. We get assumed heterosexuality, which gets locked onto our shoulders so we have to shake it off first to see what we really are. Then we're meant to decide, and stick with it forever.

Changing what you think you knew about yourself is hard enough without the pressure to stay wherever you got put/wound up!

But we are fluid beings. We adapt, we change, we reshape ourselves (or...we should...). There's very little that the teen me that thought I was a cis lesbian would recognise about 40yr old queer, agender, beardgender, poly me. And that's good, we should be almost strangers if we randomly bumped into each other. But that path was full of changes, big and small, that led me from there to here. That teen became me, with every scar and every smile that I still wear.

Aaaanyway, before I start spouting philosophy at you, you did ask an actual question!

The last film that made me cry...does laughter count? Cos The Blackening almost broke a rib, that film is freakin funny. It's an all-black main cast horror/comedy, and it just takes all the whitey horror stereotypes, punches them against a wall, rips bits off to take the piss out of, and gets down to business. Dark humour, obviously, but funny.

Actual crying tho 🤔 I do not recall. I can give you tv shows and music and books and games and podcasts instead if that would help 😁

*eats all of the media*

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1. I need to watch The Blackening

2. "But we are fluid beings. We adapt, we change, we reshape ourselves (or...we should...)." PUT THIS ON A THROW PILLOW, ON A BILLBOARD, ON A BUMPER STICKER... EVERYWHERE!

3. As always so grateful for your words here!

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