Great journal prompts! For accomplishments, a whole list of things I had done came to mind. But, in terms of whole life impact, I’d say my biggest accomplishment is maintaining stronger boundaries and saying no with more ease.
Letting go...so many things to list like perfectionism, external validation, need to please, low self-esteem, criticism etc. But the big one that would banish all of those is JUDGEMENT.
Hope to achieve - a joyful, peaceful state of being!
Thank YOU for sharing! This is inspiring and timely for me to be reading this now. There is a reason I didn't have time until today. Your words needed to give me a loving kick in the behind.
Your accomplishments are badass! And letting go of judgement is no easy feat! Go Sarah go! 🧡
Hey big and little you - you wanna put on a show? I can help 🤷
I'm struggling a lot at the moment. Trying to find blessings, trying to let go of bad things, trying to find love for myself.
But I am finding the time and energy to dk things I love. More stories are being written, and that's amazing. Heck, I even got paid for one a few weeks back, and they might want more! I still feel like I write into a vacuum, and leaving this place won't help with that. But there have been new people and places out there, that I've found, who are telling me "More!" and that helps.
I'm changing how I do some things this year, to try and stop the constant empty cutlery drawer problem that go with my various medical issues. And part of that is refocusing on writing, the one thing I can do that exhausts me in a *good* way! I have a book to finish, a shitload of story ideas to write, and more coming all the time. I'll never write them all but I'm damn well gonna write as many as I can!
But I'm also gonna keep pushing at finding wayd to use my skills - writing, sound editing, producing, directing, etc - to create things with the queer marginalised communities in a part of.
I'm blessed to have a great family. Cuddles, and 4 daft furballs. CuddleDad.
Today I'm going to a family reunion. On ny own side.
Other than my parents, and my oldest sister snd her family, none of these people have seen me since long before I came out as trans. I'm terrified. But I need to do this. I need to know.
Is the presence of the other sister always going to overshadow? Can she keep her shit to herself?
Can the others in the family acknowledge that I exist? Can they treat me like a human being?
Is there, in short, any point to considering myself still a part of that wider family? Or will today show me that I've been correct all along - that modtz though bit necessarily all, are not wkrth my time? If so, is it worth the effort to keep those who are, whilst dropping those who aren't, or is it better to continue on as I have for all these years (loooong before my egg cracked)?
I'll find out. And the onky reason I can go today is because Cuddles has my back. She won't leave me alone for a second. We have contingency plans, which all have like 2 backup plans, including what to do if the sister I don't acknowledge having tries to talk to me. We have keywords for if I need her to take over. We have everything, including just leaving. We are prepared. It doesn't make the panic go, but it does help me control it. I know there is one person there with absolutely zero fucks to give about anyone causing me problems, and she will tear the skies down to keep me safe of she has to.
There's a blessing. It was our 8yr anniversary on the 2nd. I love her. I'm safe.
We took Uno, Adorablins, A dungeon diving game I forgot the name of, and a bunch on our tablets. We didn't wind up playing most of them, but Cuddles, me, and my niece, got to completely destroy my mum at Game of Life 2, heheheh. And we taught said niece how to play Cluedo. Also, unrelated, Cuddles did a karaoke :D
I couldn't agree more and so timely I am finally getting to read this comment after already taking you on my walk with me today. Saying hi to trees will always feel like you're there too! Lots of love 🧡
Great journal prompts! For accomplishments, a whole list of things I had done came to mind. But, in terms of whole life impact, I’d say my biggest accomplishment is maintaining stronger boundaries and saying no with more ease.
Letting go...so many things to list like perfectionism, external validation, need to please, low self-esteem, criticism etc. But the big one that would banish all of those is JUDGEMENT.
Hope to achieve - a joyful, peaceful state of being!
Thanks for sharing!
Thank YOU for sharing! This is inspiring and timely for me to be reading this now. There is a reason I didn't have time until today. Your words needed to give me a loving kick in the behind.
Your accomplishments are badass! And letting go of judgement is no easy feat! Go Sarah go! 🧡
Hey big and little you - you wanna put on a show? I can help 🤷
I'm struggling a lot at the moment. Trying to find blessings, trying to let go of bad things, trying to find love for myself.
But I am finding the time and energy to dk things I love. More stories are being written, and that's amazing. Heck, I even got paid for one a few weeks back, and they might want more! I still feel like I write into a vacuum, and leaving this place won't help with that. But there have been new people and places out there, that I've found, who are telling me "More!" and that helps.
I'm changing how I do some things this year, to try and stop the constant empty cutlery drawer problem that go with my various medical issues. And part of that is refocusing on writing, the one thing I can do that exhausts me in a *good* way! I have a book to finish, a shitload of story ideas to write, and more coming all the time. I'll never write them all but I'm damn well gonna write as many as I can!
But I'm also gonna keep pushing at finding wayd to use my skills - writing, sound editing, producing, directing, etc - to create things with the queer marginalised communities in a part of.
I'm blessed to have a great family. Cuddles, and 4 daft furballs. CuddleDad.
Today I'm going to a family reunion. On ny own side.
Other than my parents, and my oldest sister snd her family, none of these people have seen me since long before I came out as trans. I'm terrified. But I need to do this. I need to know.
Is the presence of the other sister always going to overshadow? Can she keep her shit to herself?
Can the others in the family acknowledge that I exist? Can they treat me like a human being?
Is there, in short, any point to considering myself still a part of that wider family? Or will today show me that I've been correct all along - that modtz though bit necessarily all, are not wkrth my time? If so, is it worth the effort to keep those who are, whilst dropping those who aren't, or is it better to continue on as I have for all these years (loooong before my egg cracked)?
I'll find out. And the onky reason I can go today is because Cuddles has my back. She won't leave me alone for a second. We have contingency plans, which all have like 2 backup plans, including what to do if the sister I don't acknowledge having tries to talk to me. We have keywords for if I need her to take over. We have everything, including just leaving. We are prepared. It doesn't make the panic go, but it does help me control it. I know there is one person there with absolutely zero fucks to give about anyone causing me problems, and she will tear the skies down to keep me safe of she has to.
There's a blessing. It was our 8yr anniversary on the 2nd. I love her. I'm safe.
Also, we're taking games to play 🤣
P.S. What games did you take?
We took Uno, Adorablins, A dungeon diving game I forgot the name of, and a bunch on our tablets. We didn't wind up playing most of them, but Cuddles, me, and my niece, got to completely destroy my mum at Game of Life 2, heheheh. And we taught said niece how to play Cluedo. Also, unrelated, Cuddles did a karaoke :D
Happy anniversary you lovely humans! What a dreamy 8 years and thank you for sharing that here with me 🧡
Sending you love about the family reunion. I am so proud of you and to know you 🧡
Commenting live as I read this! HECK YES TO THE PAID STORY AND TO MORE! GO LEE GO!
I loved reading this! It made me so happy to hear you living life on your terms. It also made me miss you. We need a catch up my friend 💜
I couldn't agree more and so timely I am finally getting to read this comment after already taking you on my walk with me today. Saying hi to trees will always feel like you're there too! Lots of love 🧡
I could cry at how sweet that is! So much love to you and the trees!
Sending that love right back! 🌲