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Oct 27, 2023Liked by lauren deborah | she/they πŸŒˆπŸ†

Wow, what a question! I think it might be explaining things. Is that weird? Like I get such a pure joy from finding out a way to explain something that reaches someone else. That and my baby daughter, but hers is a quiet joy that I don’t need anyone else to understand.

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Nov 6, 2023Liked by lauren deborah | she/they πŸŒˆπŸ†

Love your story

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Nov 5, 2023Liked by lauren deborah | she/they πŸŒˆπŸ†

Love that photo πŸ’– is there anything more magical ✨✨ also soak up all that poppy energy & hoping you have nothing but fun in your life for what remains the end of 2023 Lauren. Also it’s obvious now where your funny side comes from L πŸ’– ps. sorry I’m only catching up on your substacks now- perfect Sunday reading/listening ✨

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Oct 31, 2023Liked by lauren deborah | she/they πŸŒˆπŸ†

This feels like the perfect next chapter for you. Hugs.

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Oct 27, 2023Liked by lauren deborah | she/they πŸŒˆπŸ†

Your list said Cuddles and it made me giggle and give cuddles to my Cuddles 😁

I think I say this every time, but your Poppy sounds wonderful. Even though his conscious mind can't remember you, it seems like something has hung on to the feeling of you. I think it's how he knows he likes you, and how he knows to joke with you.

But wow that's a question and a half! I do have an answer though.

Just last night, I was telling Cuddles about some plans for a project, and when I stopped for a sec, she just said "I love that smile."

Obviously my response was to get embarrassed.

So she helpfully clarified "That big cheesy grin".

And of course I couldn't keep from giving her my big cheesy grin again.

I didn't know I was doing it when she made the first comment. Then I did. And I thought then how it's the grin I give to her and rarely anyone else. Because it's the one I can only wear when all of my self-conscious, paranoid, hiding self goes away for a moment and I exist solely with her, safe and happy. And those moments are rare for me. She definitely sees at least 90% of those smiles.

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