Oh Lauren incredible piece of writing. Firstly before my thoughts go delving into your readers questions, do you realise how iconic The Summer Bay soap is to us Irish! It's still showed daily on our main television station at 1.30pm & repeated at 6.30pm.. As a very young kid when l had no idea how big the World was never mind Australia & we met a tourist or visitor from 'down under' you could be sure many of us asked "omg your from Australia do you know Alf from H&A & is the surf as good as it looks on TV in Summer Bay"
Secondly I'm sure the woofs were as sad to see you go too, as your kind nature seems to instantly put fur babies at ease & gain their trust.
Thirdly yeap l believe that early sighting of the Whale 🐋 had a purpose for you.
Fourthly now l can't exactly remember your question to us readers 😁😆 but l do know my initial thought to it was in the past fear of failure, rejection, & stupidly thinking but 'what would other people think' lm gladly repeating that what l wrote just know were past thoughts within my own head. Now lm living more honestly within my own headspace with a "sure why not, what's the worst that can happen, it may open new doors & live in the moment can do will do, tomorrow is not guaranteed mind frame..which is far more satisfying & peaceful within..p.s l expect to see pics of Summer Bay & the Diner in your next volumes & say hi to Alf in the Surf Club!!! 😊💜🤎💛💚💙🧡
I believe in signs, and that whale was definitely one for you!
Also, from spiritanimal dot info:
“The whale spirit animal is the earth's record keeper for all time. As a totem, the whale teaches you about listening to your inner voice, understanding the impact your emotions have on your everyday life, and following your own truth.”
As always I love hearing about how you've gotten to where you are, through everything.
I used to he able to write and write and write for hours. Now I can't and I hate it. And that stops me from starting, like somehow if I can only write for 20 minutes that's just not good enough. Which is super unhelpful.
And every time I release something into the world (blog, story, podcast, game), I'm sad that nobody really cares about reading it. Never enough. I want to share - because I put work into something and I want people to enjoy it, to immerse themselves, to learn, to just like it and want more. But feeling like nobody cares is...not fun.
I love the moments when I see someone enjoying something I made, it helps me keep making. My podcast is about to begin season 2. While season 1 was small in numbers (a few hundred listens), it seemed to be enjoyed by people. And this season other people, other queer writers, have trusted me with their work, and I need to be able to show that to people, to immerse them in the queerness, in the worlds, in the good stories, and it's making me anxious before I even begin 🤦
I am working on it all. I used to have a routine, I just need a kinder one that can flex with my daily ability to do/not do stuff. Which means instead of beating myself up on a not do day, I need to just take the next one, and trust that I'll get it all done. And I also need to trust that I can do it well. Not sure which is harder 🤔🤷
Oh Lauren incredible piece of writing. Firstly before my thoughts go delving into your readers questions, do you realise how iconic The Summer Bay soap is to us Irish! It's still showed daily on our main television station at 1.30pm & repeated at 6.30pm.. As a very young kid when l had no idea how big the World was never mind Australia & we met a tourist or visitor from 'down under' you could be sure many of us asked "omg your from Australia do you know Alf from H&A & is the surf as good as it looks on TV in Summer Bay"
Secondly I'm sure the woofs were as sad to see you go too, as your kind nature seems to instantly put fur babies at ease & gain their trust.
Thirdly yeap l believe that early sighting of the Whale 🐋 had a purpose for you.
Fourthly now l can't exactly remember your question to us readers 😁😆 but l do know my initial thought to it was in the past fear of failure, rejection, & stupidly thinking but 'what would other people think' lm gladly repeating that what l wrote just know were past thoughts within my own head. Now lm living more honestly within my own headspace with a "sure why not, what's the worst that can happen, it may open new doors & live in the moment can do will do, tomorrow is not guaranteed mind frame..which is far more satisfying & peaceful within..p.s l expect to see pics of Summer Bay & the Diner in your next volumes & say hi to Alf in the Surf Club!!! 😊💜🤎💛💚💙🧡
I believe in signs, and that whale was definitely one for you!
Also, from spiritanimal dot info:
“The whale spirit animal is the earth's record keeper for all time. As a totem, the whale teaches you about listening to your inner voice, understanding the impact your emotions have on your everyday life, and following your own truth.”
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The promises do come true
As always I love hearing about how you've gotten to where you are, through everything.
I used to he able to write and write and write for hours. Now I can't and I hate it. And that stops me from starting, like somehow if I can only write for 20 minutes that's just not good enough. Which is super unhelpful.
And every time I release something into the world (blog, story, podcast, game), I'm sad that nobody really cares about reading it. Never enough. I want to share - because I put work into something and I want people to enjoy it, to immerse themselves, to learn, to just like it and want more. But feeling like nobody cares is...not fun.
I love the moments when I see someone enjoying something I made, it helps me keep making. My podcast is about to begin season 2. While season 1 was small in numbers (a few hundred listens), it seemed to be enjoyed by people. And this season other people, other queer writers, have trusted me with their work, and I need to be able to show that to people, to immerse them in the queerness, in the worlds, in the good stories, and it's making me anxious before I even begin 🤦
I am working on it all. I used to have a routine, I just need a kinder one that can flex with my daily ability to do/not do stuff. Which means instead of beating myself up on a not do day, I need to just take the next one, and trust that I'll get it all done. And I also need to trust that I can do it well. Not sure which is harder 🤔🤷