In the past few years, I've started to see how deeply I internalized other people's expectations as my own, to the point that I cannot answer the question "What you want for dinner?" without considering what the people near me might want / need / could want or need; and if I can just figure that out ASAP, in silence, with stealth, then everything will be okay; and if everything is okay, then I will have done my job! Expectations met!!
So many of the past weeks have felt like a daily unweaving practice: picking apart a thought to see where it leads, if it leads somewhere that I can identify, or if it is, per my therapist, "old shit." (There is a lot of old shit.) I'm learning that gentleness is the gift and the goal, especially when I can't see it right now.
Sending all my best for the medication adjustment to ease up on you! Wishing lots of naps as needed & excellent hat acquisition.
Sarah, thank you so very much I so hear you on the dinner dilemma. Something that sustains us, brings us joy, nourishes us and can be either a hit or miss for our tastebuds, should not be where we deicide to people please. Yet it is right there at the core of it.
I so appreciate you sharing this and wish you lots of dinners of choice 🧡
Truthful, honest, raw & a great insight into us humans into todays substack…also a great analysis of how many are quick to judge rather than understand…A great friday piece LD 👌💖
Sorry about your pet bird but happy to hear your nan & pop have new birds in their lives 🙏& I love that they call them after their own names 💖🥰 #cuteness
I am going to hitch a ride on this comment as it’s what I thought too but can’t say when reading in the small hours. Love your self-knowledge LD, love you both. ❤️
Late to reading this time, delighted to catch up!
In the past few years, I've started to see how deeply I internalized other people's expectations as my own, to the point that I cannot answer the question "What you want for dinner?" without considering what the people near me might want / need / could want or need; and if I can just figure that out ASAP, in silence, with stealth, then everything will be okay; and if everything is okay, then I will have done my job! Expectations met!!
So many of the past weeks have felt like a daily unweaving practice: picking apart a thought to see where it leads, if it leads somewhere that I can identify, or if it is, per my therapist, "old shit." (There is a lot of old shit.) I'm learning that gentleness is the gift and the goal, especially when I can't see it right now.
Sending all my best for the medication adjustment to ease up on you! Wishing lots of naps as needed & excellent hat acquisition.
Sarah, thank you so very much I so hear you on the dinner dilemma. Something that sustains us, brings us joy, nourishes us and can be either a hit or miss for our tastebuds, should not be where we deicide to people please. Yet it is right there at the core of it.
I so appreciate you sharing this and wish you lots of dinners of choice 🧡
1. Being told you’re in a bad mood is like someone telling you to relax or calm down. Aarrggghh!
2. “Your opinion of me is none of my business.” Life changing words heard in a meeting long ago. You got this.
3. Swim every day. Rebirth.
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🧡🧡🧡 oh, yes, you get it 🧡🧡🧡
Lovely and thoughtful essay. 💕
Thank you so much, Cathy! 🧡
Truthful, honest, raw & a great insight into us humans into todays substack…also a great analysis of how many are quick to judge rather than understand…A great friday piece LD 👌💖
Sorry about your pet bird but happy to hear your nan & pop have new birds in their lives 🙏& I love that they call them after their own names 💖🥰 #cuteness
Thank you so very much for reading and for always encouraging me 🧡🧡🧡
I am going to hitch a ride on this comment as it’s what I thought too but can’t say when reading in the small hours. Love your self-knowledge LD, love you both. ❤️
So much love to you, Marian! Thank you 🧡🧡